The Soul Of Solomon

What if today was my last day on earth? That was the concept that confronted me today. I gave a number of things much thought. And you were one of them. I imagined how I'd feel if I left the mortal plane without fully expressing my feelings for you. I'd feel like I'd betrayed myself as well as you. I'm writing you a letter today as though it's the last one I ever write. I give thanks to the heavenly creator for the day I met you. In this carnival that is daily life, we all have masks that we wear. Mine was of a somber, distant, and cold individual. I was unable to comprehend what I saw when I glanced at you. You were in opposition to everything I was aware of. But as I got to know you more, I realized how true it is that we should never judge a book by its cover. The heart that was hiding behind the boisterous nonchalance gave me more love and concern than I had ever known. Your playful nature made my gloomy days more enjoyable. Your words of support gave me the co...

I'm afraid. Honestly, I'm terrified. I'm worried I might lose you. I'm afraid you'll never know that a soul out there once loved you with everything he had. I worry that these few square inches of my heart won't be able to hold you in the way that you deserve. I'm afraid I might cease seeing your lovely brown eyes and how they wrinkle at the corners when you smile one day. I'm frightened of not being able to put your anxieties at ease or lift your spirits when you're sad. I'm afraid I won't be able to hear your sweet voice and laughter echoing through the halls of my thoughts. I worry that none of these letters or poems, which each contain a special part of my heart, will ever experience the breathtaking sight of your eyes. I'm afraid the rainbows in the sky and the rays that light when you smile will turn away from me, leaving me in a never-ending night. I'm scared I'll never take your hand in mine and spell out my love for you w...

I remember telling you the day we sat down on those cold tiles that you were the silver lining to my cloudy days. So today, I'm writing to you, my silver lining. I've wanted to write one of these to you for a long time. I told myself, though, that the timing was never perfect. I'll be happy to put pen to paper and express what a joy your presence has been for me, even if you never read this. If I were required to give explanations for my feelings toward you, I would have a long list that would continue to get longer over time. The one that would top them all, though, is just this: It's because of you that I was able to be the person I wanted to be. It was dark here until you brought light. Since that initial afternoon, there have been several incidents that have felt like a roller coaster. Nevertheless, despite the ups and downs, apologies and quiet. I now have a better understanding of what it means to be human. And even if this never happens. I'll be happy to h...

I ask myself this question every day, Why you? Now, I know that "why" questions never have any real answers, but I'll try any way. When I look at you, I laugh at the indecisiveness of the human heart. For i remember the last time I said I'd found the one to end my search, the one to rest my heart and mind. I thought I'd seen perfection and beauty in my short life. Ohhhh, How wrong I was..... The day I met you, the first time I saw you, I took no notice. I thought you would be one of the myriad faces that come and go, Little did I know that your face would be etched deep  into my eyelids, to be seen even as I fall into sleep's embrace. When I heard your name, I thought it was unique and that was the end of that. Never did I imagine that the sound of it would ever make my heart beat a mad tempo..... I sit down at this table with a pen and paper and try to list the things about you that enthralled me so..... Maybe I'll find the culprit that has me trapped in ...

I woke up today morning and I dreaded the day, but not for any particularly terrifying reasons. It was simply because I knew that today was another one of those days. Days where I'm supposed to sit and talk to you ,and act like your voice doesn't put me in a trance, when I have to look you in the eye and pretend that your gaze isn't a sizzling hot pan and that I'm a helpless little block of butter that can't help but melt in your presence. Those days when I have to watch what I say very carefully to prevent myself from uttering everything my heart wants to say to you. Yet another day when all I can think about is how your eyes are two pools of the perfect shade of chocolate and my thoughts are getting sucked into them. Days where I have to control my thoughts, lest I wander off into a wonderland where I hold your hand in mine and lie down in the cool grass gazing up at the stars, thinking of how your eyes sparkle and make the constellations burn with envy. F...

I don't need a girlfriend nor a bae not a waifu nor all those terms used Now don't get me wrong... but it's not like that What I need is a friend someone I can tell everything while saying nothing... Someone who knows me better than I know myself... someone I can seat and eat Rolex with nyanya mbisi and act like it's high tea at Sheraton... Someone to get me even when I can't get myself... A person to get all my edges and fit perfectly to the curves in my personality that we will make a beautiful jigsaw puzzle... where the pieces make no sense in their own... but together describe beauty and harmony like that of nature Even if this sounds like a little too much to ask I'll wait for as long as it takes... For I know that You grant us our heart's desires And this is but my one desire... for this weary heart to find solace and comfort in that which you will have made for me So please give me the strength to be a good steward to the gift you will give you me and...