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My last love letter

What if today was my last day on earth? That was the concept that confronted me today. I gave a number of things much thought. And you were one of them. I imagined how I'd feel if I left the mortal plane without fully expressing my feelings for you. I'd feel like I'd betrayed myself as well as you.
I'm writing you a letter today as though it's the last one I ever write. I give thanks to the heavenly creator for the day I met you. In this carnival that is daily life, we all have masks that we wear. Mine was of a somber, distant, and cold individual. I was unable to comprehend what I saw when I glanced at you. You were in opposition to everything I was aware of. But as I got to know you more, I realized how true it is that we should never judge a book by its cover. The heart that was hiding behind the boisterous nonchalance gave me more love and concern than I had ever known. Your playful nature made my gloomy days more enjoyable. Your words of support gave me the courage to try and trust once more. Even when I wasn't myself, you were there for me. The fact that you remained and held my hand, that you trusted me even though I did not trust myself, is a gift that I never earned and that I will never be able to fully understand. As I've gotten older, I've lost a lot of things. I've come to recognize the necessity of change and the necessity of letting certain things go. But you are one of the people I sincerely hope I never, ever lose. That's why I requested a new beginning. My haste and impulsiveness nearly cost me you. I sincerely hope that never occurs again. If I actually lost you, I don't know how long it would take me to forgive myself.
If I tried to express how much you mean to me in as many words as the English language allows, I still feel like I would be doing you a disservice. I started gathering dictionary words to phrase it for you, but I soon realized I was running out of words. I need additional words to describe you beyond what the dictionary has. Just how wonderful and extraordinary are you? To tell you how much and why I love you would be like telling you what water tastes like. It is not possible. If words were intended to accurately convey it, then they have not yet been created. You might not care for me or love me the same way that I do, but if you ever need someone, I'll be here for you. If I had to choose between breathing and loving you, I would choose to express my love for you with my last breath. In all honesty, I never imagined that I would like you this much or that you would be on my mind so frequently. Every time I overheard someone discuss battling for their love, I was curious. I truly desired to know what would make them so sure of their dedication to an individual.I still question the meaning and value of love sometimes. I then turn to face you, and I'm prepared to fight. With your grin, my heart was won over, and your eyes captured my attention. They are the ideal place for my mind to rest. Although I have complete freedom in where my thoughts travel, it's astonishing how frequently they turn to you. I could pour rivers of words into your direction, yet they would only be a drop in the sea of my feelings. Therefore, I shall pray that this letter somehow manages to express even a small amount of my love for you. As always, I am wholly and continuously yours,
Soul.

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