I'm afraid. Honestly, I'm terrified. I'm worried I might lose you. I'm afraid you'll never know that a soul out there once loved you with everything he had. I worry that these few square inches of my heart won't be able to hold you in the way that you deserve. I'm afraid I might cease seeing your lovely brown eyes and how they wrinkle at the corners when you smile one day. I'm frightened of not being able to put your anxieties at ease or lift your spirits when you're sad. I'm afraid I won't be able to hear your sweet voice and laughter echoing through the halls of my thoughts. I worry that none of these letters or poems, which each contain a special part of my heart, will ever experience the breathtaking sight of your eyes. I'm afraid the rainbows in the sky and the rays that light when you smile will turn away from me, leaving me in a never-ending night. I'm scared I'll never take your hand in mine and spell out my love for you with all the letters of the alphabet. My greatest concern is that you'll never realize how much I adore you; more than an ice cold glass of juice on a hot summer day. More than a warm cup of tea at midnight. More than listening to my favorite song when I'm upset. More than the smell of freshly baked chocolate cake. More than sitting inside as the soft rain drums against my windows. More than a perfectly grilled piece of chicken. More than reading my favorite book in a quiet library. More than all the above even if they were all somehow combined together.
I remember telling you the day we sat down on those cold tiles that you were the silver lining to my cloudy days.
So today, I'm writing to you, my silver lining.
I've wanted to write one of these to you for a long time. I told myself, though, that the timing was never perfect. I'll be happy to put pen to paper and express what a joy your presence has been for me, even if you never read this. If I were required to give explanations for my feelings toward you, I would have a long list that would continue to get longer over time. The one that would top them all, though, is just this: It's because of you that I was able to be the person I wanted to be. It was dark here until you brought light. Since that initial afternoon, there have been several incidents that have felt like a roller coaster. Nevertheless, despite the ups and downs, apologies and quiet. I now have a better understanding of what it means to be human. And even if this never happens. I'll be happy to h...
I like the way you flow in your blogs
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